Our First Thanksgiving ♥

I had an AMAZING thanksgiving. It was the first time I cooked the thanksgiving meal, it turned out truly great, which made me feel really good. There were only a few people, my mom and us and one of Jims buddies from work, but it didnt feel lacking at all. Wish there were maybe a few more people only because we had sooo much food, probably could have fed 6 or 7, but hey more leftovers for us right? I wasnt able to try alot of the recipes because money is tight... but we had great food and my turkey came out so juicy. It was falling off the bone, haha! I was so pleased with the turkey we got at the food distribution, it was such nice quality. I felt so blessed to have such love in my house, and such yummy smells. This was one of the best thanksgivings Ive ever had. No family drama, Football was on, good company and homecooked food that I made. I am so thankful for my husband and daughter. They are the loves of my life, Im so happy to have him home with us this holiday season, it means the world to me. He loves us so much and shows us that every chance he gets. I never thought I could be so happy, it is truly because of my family. I cannot wait to put up our tree, I'm just so filled with the holiday spirit. It truly is a wonderful life ♥

Dreammood Analyzes My Most Recent Dreams

So lately Ive been having the most bizarre dreams, like the other night I dreamt that like everyone I knew went on a huge field trip. We were going like around the world or something and somehow my field trip buddy was a tiger, and I couldnt go with everyone else I had to go on some detour. Everyone was doing super fun things, like playing with monkeys and watching fireworks and I was stuck with some dumb tiger trying to make me its dinner. So after being told in Minnesota I couldnt go to the next destination, I ditched the tiger and got lost and then I woke up.

Last night I dreamt that I was in somesort of survivor deal and everyone was telling me to breastfeed them so they could have something to drink and I thought it was gross and said no. So they decided to kill me and just eat me.. so I was stuck on an island hiding from crazy people trying to eat me.


I know weird... hahaa

I thought it would be interesting to go to google it and figure out what my dreams mean


According to Dreammoods.com

To see a tiger in your dream, represents power and your ability to exert it in various situations. The dream may also indicate that you to take more of a leadership role. Alternatively, the tiger represents female sexuality, aggression, and seduction.

To dream that you are attacked by a tiger, symbolizes repressed feelings or emotions that frighten you.

To dream that you are going on a trip, suggests that you are in need of a change of scenery. You are feeling overworked and need to take time out for yourself for some fun and relaxation.Alternatively, the dream may mean that you are looking to explore a different aspect of yourself.

To see a detour in your dream, signifies that you have encountered an obstacle in some aspect of your life. You may not want to confront something directly and thus must try to find a way around it.

To dream that you are lost, suggests that you have lost your direction in life or that you have lost sight of your goals. You may be feeling worried and insecure about the path you are taking in life. Alternatively, you may be trying to adjust and get accustomed to a new situation in which the rules and conditions are ever changing.

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To dream that you are stranded on an island, suggests that you need to get away from the demands of your daily life. Or perhaps you are running away from a situation instead of trying to confront it. Alternatively, you may feel cut off from society. You are in a rut and do not quite know what to do with your life.

To dream that you are being hunted, indicates that you are being overwhelmed by life's challenges.

Well I thought that was going to be fun, but that just brought me down. Every interpretation suggested that I'm overwhelmed. Hmm. I don't think I'm that overwhelmed, sure I have my days, but damn doesn't everyone?

That was a experiment gone depressing, haha!

My Breastfeeding Dilemma.

I am completely torn when it comes to my breastfeeding situation. I feel like I'm not producing enough, I mean I have enough most days.. but its a constant stresser. But then If I supplement and give Michaela formula, it breaks my heart. She doesnt have the breast-milk breathe and she makes a face like it tastes horrid, which I dont doubt. I want to give her formula but I hate that she doesnt like it. Honestly what I really want is to have an amazing supply and not worry about it anymore but thats not the case. I see the easy way out in sight which would be to give her formula, easy on hand.. and I could get WIC so it wouldn't be that much, but on the other hand, I love breatfeeding her, I feel like its what my body is made to do. But it stressful. I am so jealous of women that have amazing supplies and its never an issue, and Im jealous of people that just give their children formula and don't have a rediculous complex about it. I wish it wasn't so important to me, but bottom line it is. I know that because I feel its the best for her I will probably breastfeed until 6 months or until the flu season is over. Once she starts on baby food, which I'm planning on making myself, I think it will be easier for me to start using formula, hopefully! hahaha! I'm so bullheaded sometimes. Hopefully Michaela appreciates me for this, though I doubt that too!

Paparazzi Weekend

I am so excited for this weekend! We have booked two photo-shoots this weekend. The first one is on Saturday at 12:45 at Hartley Botanica. I googled the place and its so extremely beautiful! Its going to make for the sweetest holiday pictures. Then on Sunday we have Michaela's 3 month pictures. Its the same people that did her newborn shots at the hospital so I'm really excited. We are also going to see if we can purchase more of her newborn pictures. We ended up giving most of them away and some family still want some. Those are going to be at a studio in Ventura at 2 so Jim doesn't miss his games. haha! Overall, I think its going to be a great weekend :]

Starting School on Monday!!

Im really excited to start school. Its a whole new adventure for me. I had never been very interested in school in the past. Then Michaela came, I want so much for my kids to be proud of me. I want them to know that everything her dad and I do is for them, to better their lives. I really hope I am successful at this. I havent had to do homework in years. Im taking Medical Transcription and Medical Billing and Coding. The military is going to pay my way and its a career that I can find a job wherever we go. Ill keep you guys posted on how the schooling is going! Please keep your fingers crossed, and every once and a while verbally kick my butt for some motivation.

Why a Blog?

This is my first entry. I decided to start a blog to express myself, and to get things off my chest. This blog probably wont be the most interesting, but it will real, my real issues my real feelings, me being as real as I can be. Follow me to get a taste of a 21 year old Mother and Military Wife.